Thank you Father for answered prayers, for your Spirit’s work in our hearts and minds. Thank you all for your faithful prayers, for your comments, and holding us up in prayer.
It has been a difficult week. Theresa continues to decline. She sleeps or rests 22-23 hours a day, waking up or alerting when talked to or someone comes into the room. She hasn’t eaten in 4 days, but is still drinking 8-12 oz of water a day. She chokes often when drinking water, so my nurse graciously got some thickener for us. She of course still prefers straight water. We decided today to significantly reduce the pills she is taking and only limit it to that which makes her more comfortable. We have liquid forms when that time comes.
Despite having the new bed, she wanted to sleep in the recliner last night, which she said was more comfortable, so for now that is where she will stay. God has been very kind to us. For a long time Theresa coughed and coughed all day and night – a very exhausting ordeal. In addition she had intense chest pain. For the past two weeks as she has declined, she hasn’t been coughing other than when she cokes or after talking a while. Her chest discomfort seems managed too. So for the most part she rests comfortably. Thank you Father and thank you for your prayers.
Theresa has gotten very weak. She needs help getting out of the chair and walking. I assist her in showering and brushing her hair. She gets very dizzy, short of breath, and exhausted afterwards. I don’t believe we will do this many more times.
I worked through Friday, but then hit a wall. I have been praying for the Spirit to help me make wise decisions. My nurses wanted me to take this past week off, but I didn’t feel it was time yet. Then my office manager convinced me to close my schedule 3 days next week, which we did. But then by noon Friday, it was obvious my heart and mind wasn’t at work but at home and I realized I needed to be home caring for Theresa.
We have had many offers of help, of which we are so very grateful. But Theresa is a private person and would have felt uncomfortable if someone other than I took care of her, which I gladly do. So for now I have taken the next two weeks off to care for my bride, my best friend of 26 years. Oh it is so very painful to go through this, yet I am honored to be here serving her until I can put her hand in Christ’s and he takes her home.
We plan on contacting Hospice this week to help us through the last steps, to make sure Theresa is as comfortable as possible.
Theresa’s greatest desire now is to pass in her sleep. She has had the feeling she can’t breath with her effusions growing and lymph nodes growing making it harder to breath. She gets panicked at times through out the day. One of her medications helps limit these times. So our request is prayer for comfort, peace, not having the sensation of suffocation and that she would transition to eternity in the comfort of sleep.
Christ is our example of unconditional love, facing the difficult straight on, persevering despite the pain and anguish. He is the road we trod to abundant and eternal life. His promises are rock solid, and can be counted on. Nothing on earth can come close, actually a large chasm exists between what the world promises and what He promises and He bridges that gap for us. All glory belongs to Him. In these difficult days the invisible is becoming visible. this is holy ground.
Thank you for your continued prayers.