Father thank you for sustaining us in so many ways. For the seasons, the warmth of the sun, words of encouragement, your promises written so we won’t forget. Thank you all for being His instruments of encouragement and help.
Two weeks ago I wrote about the subtleties of our relationship. I hadn’t been aware of how much Theresa and I stayed in contact with words, brief touches through the day, glances, smiles and just sitting next to each other. Outside of work we were always together, doing chores and life. We constantly talked our love language. I feel its absence.
It then occurred to me that I wasn’t looking at it with the right mindset. All love language originates from the Author of love. Marriage is a cord of three connected in love. Yes Theresa isn’t here with me, but she still is. She is still connected to the Author of love, as I am, though now more so as she is with Him. And God promises to sustain us (Psalms 119:116, Hebrews 1:3), takes care of us (Psalms 55:22), and be all that we need (Psalms 23:1, Phil 4:19). So I have been praying that God would fill the void with himself. I believe He is willing to do so, I just need to adjust my thinking, my view. I need to have his perspective. I also need to see him in everything.
His touches and connections with us can be the rest and renewal we get from Sunday afternoon naps, the warmth of the sun on our faces, the peace we feel, the divine appointments, the cards or words of encouragement that come, hugs from friends, etc. He constantly speaks His love language to us the question is how in love are we with him that we recognize it and respond in like kind? He is the answer to our longing. He will be all that we desire, if we allow him to be.
So I have been praying for a deeper sense of Him. A deeper intimacy. A greater awareness of his actual sustenance, and in so doing I don’t feel the loss the same way. Instead I am healing. I know that I am taken care of and loved. God has been doing this directly, but also through his body here on Earth.
This past week I received a few tender cards, words of encouragement, words of love from people I know and others I have not yet had the pleasure of meeting. God spoke to them to show me his heart through them. Thank you. I’ve been blessed with overflowing love from all of you. Thank you.
The kids are all doing better as well. Matthew is slowly gaining ground. We are learning to live again. Thank you for all your prayers, words of encouragement and following along on this journey with us.