Thank you Father for the calm in the midst of the storm, the renewal and refreshment despite the tempest upon us. Thank you all for the outpouring of love we have been blessed and humbled to receive. Thank you for continuing to pray and uplift our family.
Last week was a trying week with Theresa being so sick and uncertain it was worth the misery to fight this. But the damage the Chemo did to her body has passed, her cells regenerating and her pain and discomfort gone. She, we, have had a good week. This week has made the diagnosis and trials seem surreal and the thing of the past, though we know it isn’t the case. Our spirits have been renewed, our cup filled up again. Though Theresa is easily fatigued, still not sleeping well, staying in bed longer than usual, we have had some great gains. Last Wednesday she drove herself to an Oncology visit, first time driving for about a month – though hasn’t gone out since. We have been able to laugh together, enjoy being with each other, and see some visitors as well. She fatigues out easily, but the visits have been so good. She continues to stay home and avoid public places to keep from getting sick, which could delay her further treatments. What even makes this better, we had a nice valentines day, giving each other cards filled with our hearts, and now President’s day another day to enjoy at home with few distractions.
Thursday she starts her treatments again. Last week insurance denied the request for changing to another, more expensive, chemo agent as she got so sick with the last one and what seemed she had all the side effects listed. Our Oncologist has worked tirelessly to explain why to the insurance company on our behalf, spending a few hours fighting for us on his day off. We are humbled by his work for us. Hopefully Thursday she will be able to get the alternative chemo we are trying to get approved and the HERS2-neu antibodies, Herceptin and its sister. The cancer seems to be responding, as the breast mass is softer, though we won’t know for 3-4 weeks if the liver metastasis are responding as well.
I am so grateful to God for this past week. We are hopeful with the change in chemo and changing to a lower dose every week instead of the high dose every three weeks, will allow Theresa to have some semblance of normalcy, not a wrestling with anguish, pain, and despondency like the week previously.
Theresa was hopeful that she would have avoided the hair loss associated with the Taxotere since a good number don’t lose their hair, we are told, and together she only receive one full dose. Well her hair loss accelerated this week. By Tuesday, she was in tears as large handfuls of hair fell out with every brush stroke or readjustment of her hair. The shower drain was getting clogged and hair was falling into her food. Losing her long hair this way was becoming traumatic, so she asked me to cut what was left to about a inch long. She transformed into the cancer patient look, wearing the caps and scarfs patients fighting cancer wear. Now the hair falls out just as fast, but being 14-18 inches shorter, it is less traumatic. Her head still feels like it is sunburned so wearing a cap in bed helps limit the discomfort from her pillow.
Theresa has adapted well. I am impressed with her resolve. These changes are not easy, in fact painful, yet a cord of three is not easily broken. God sustains us, helps us work it through, gives us perspective and comforts – Oh how he comforts through the work of His Spirit, healing balm of His word, and through His hands and feet manifest through the lives of you, your care of us and prayers for us. We have so much to be grateful for. We are still humbled and overwhelmed by the out pouring of His blessings and your kindness.
Continue to hold us up in your prayers, continue to allow God’s love to expand in your hearts, continue to be the blessing you are. Continue to pray for a miracle, who knows, that may be what God has planned. It may be a miracle in Theresa’s life, or even in your life. A miracle of Grace and selfless love that leads to healing, true healing.