We tread on holy ground

Thank you Father for answered prayers, for your Spirit’s work in our hearts and minds. Thank you all for your faithful prayers, for your comments, and holding us up in prayer.

It has been a difficult week. Theresa continues to decline. She sleeps or rests 22-23 hours a day, waking up or alerting when talked to or someone comes into the room. She hasn’t eaten in 4 days, but is still drinking 8-12 oz of water a day. She chokes often when drinking water, so my nurse graciously got some thickener for us. She of course still prefers straight water. We decided today to significantly reduce the pills she is taking and only limit it to that which makes her more comfortable. We have liquid forms when that time comes.

Despite having the new bed, she wanted to sleep in the recliner last night, which she said was more comfortable, so for now that is where she will stay. God has been very kind to us. For a long time Theresa coughed and coughed all day and night – a very exhausting ordeal. In addition she had intense chest pain. For the past two weeks as she has declined, she hasn’t been coughing other than when she cokes or after talking a while. Her chest discomfort seems managed too. So for the most part she rests comfortably. Thank you Father and thank you for your prayers.

Theresa has gotten very weak. She needs help getting out of the chair and walking. I assist her in showering and brushing her hair. She gets very dizzy, short of breath, and exhausted afterwards. I don’t believe we will do this many more times.

I worked through Friday, but then hit a wall. I have been praying for the Spirit to help me make wise decisions. My nurses wanted me to take this past week off, but I didn’t feel it was time yet. Then my office manager convinced me to close my schedule 3 days next week, which we did. But then by noon Friday, it was obvious my heart and mind wasn’t at work but at home and I realized I needed to be home caring for Theresa.

We have had many offers of help, of which we are so very grateful. But Theresa is a private person and would have felt uncomfortable if someone other than I took care of her, which I gladly do. So for now I have taken the next two weeks off to care for my bride, my best friend of 26 years. Oh it is so very painful to go through this, yet I am honored to be here serving her until I can put her hand in Christ’s and he takes her home.

We plan on contacting Hospice this week to help us through the last steps, to make sure Theresa is as comfortable as possible.

Theresa’s greatest desire now is to pass in her sleep. She has had the feeling she can’t breath with her effusions growing and lymph nodes growing making it harder to breath. She gets panicked at times through out the day. One of her medications helps limit these times. So our request is prayer for comfort, peace, not having the sensation of suffocation and that she would transition to eternity in the comfort of sleep.

Christ is our example of unconditional love, facing the difficult straight on, persevering despite the pain and anguish. He is the road we trod to abundant and eternal life. His promises are rock solid, and can be counted on. Nothing on earth can come close, actually a large chasm exists between what the world promises and what He promises and He bridges that gap for us. All glory belongs to Him. In these difficult days the invisible is becoming visible. this is holy ground.

Thank you for your continued prayers.

Comments

  1. Toni Belveal says

    Most heartfelt prayers of comfort and peace, and prayers that Theresa’ feeling of suffocation will be released. She is where she wants to be, having you care for her. A blessing for you both. God has been so faithful, thank you for teaching us grace as you haved walked this journey. To God be the Glory.

  2. Mara Kim says

    Theresa, thank you for being so wonderful. I love you so much! You have taught me to look at the positive. Like I always say, “You are an Angel!”❤️

    To the Williams Family, we pray that Jesus wraps His arms around you and gives you the peace that passes all understanding.

    Passing the phone to Dominic…

    Theresa, I am praying for you and I love you. Here’s my verse for you:

    “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish, but have eternal life. For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through him. He who believes in him is not judged; he who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.”

    John 3:16-18

    Love, The Kim Family

  3. Carol & Marcus Johns says

    We have been with you in prayer and spirit from the start on this painful difficult journey for Theresa, you and your children. We were grateful to hear that you could take one more family vacation to a place Theresa loves so much. Thank you for sharing this difficult and deeply personal experience with us. Our prays now are for Theresa to pass quietly and painlessly and for you and your family to find peace. You are deeply loved by so many.

  4. DeAnna Rooklidge says

    Praying God’s peace and His presence for your family. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.
    ❤️ The Rooklidges

  5. Nancy says

    Praying for Theresa’s comfort and God’s peace surrounding her. Thank you for your faithfulness to her and your trust in Jesus.

  6. Debbie says

    Getting to know Theresa has been one of my greatest blessings. I will never forget the face she made when she thought I was coming over to care for her knowing full well she wanted her best Friend and husband with her till the end of this earthly life, and even then, one is lucky to have a true love like that which will go on forever. Dr Paul, thank you for your wisdom and for walking the walk. It is such an honor to know you both.

  7. Pearl Moltz says

    My love and prayers are with you, Theresa and your family at this time. Prayers for strength and healing and peace. Much love.

  8. Jenni Bodnar says

    Praying for you Dr. Paul and your precious family. God bless you as you usher sweet Theresa into peace with her loving savior. God be with you in these final days and moments.

  9. Doris and Bill says

    Dr Paul, Theresa, and your loving family,
    Bill and I send our heart-felt wishes for peace, comfort, and love as this journey is nearing its end. What a beautiful way to picture this as placing Theresa’s hand into the Lord’s. May your strength be buoyed by all the love that surrounds you!

  10. Janet Anderen says

    We are continuing to pray with all of you for your precious Theresa and for you and your precious family! Sending you all much love!!!

  11. Linda says

    Praying for Theresa’s comfort in these days to come. Praying for you as well and your family. She is blessed to have you all. May God bring you all peace.
    I’m so sorry you are all going through this hard time.

  12. Jim Parker says

    Paul, Theresa and family; love you all and will continue to pray for all of you. For comfort and peace for Theresa, for strength and determination for you, Paul, as well as tenderness and long-standing compassion, and for the boys to know His peace despite very painful and deep loss. May His love overshadow all. Your family is the best!

  13. Barb and Steve Freeman says

    Dear Dr. Paul, Theresa and family. . . Praying for the peace of God to fill your hearts, His comfort to whisper in your ears day and night and His sweet presence to hold you tight. . . Our hearts are hurting knowing you all are going through such a difficult time. . . .

  14. Sherrie Conrad says

    Continuing to pray & petition the almighty for comfort, strength, & sweet peace for all of you. Know we are with you in prayer & spirit. Blessings

  15. Kimberly says

    Bless Your Hearts My Prayers are With You I’m So Very Sorry. Praying for Theresa’s Comfort & for God to Ease Your Heart.

  16. Linda Amondson-Muller says

    Prayers Dr. Paul for strength in this declining process each and every hours. This transition is not easy but your love, and care alone is a blessing for your family. Gods love for all of you is never wavering.

  17. Debbie OConnor says

    I pray God’s peace fills and surrounds you all. I have had you all on my heart continually and I will keep praying. ❤️

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